April Showers Bring May Flowers, So Let's Praise Tuesday!

Hello happy blog!

Oh, how i've missed the sweet sight of missing weekly posts. I honestly have missed this blog!!!

Where to begin? Other than writing this blog, listening to Fleetwood Mac(don't judge me), i've been keeping my focus on The LORD and where he's put me in life at the moment. Sure, i still have amounts of life to repair. But i know for a fact He's always with me, and i trust in His plan. His good.  word is worth anything to repair my life.

Anyways, i have met new people and they've kept me happy while i went missing in action. I've been extremely happy where i am on this God Blessed Earth. I've also met nice girls that i can get to know through His eyes and what He thinks of them. However, whenever someone new walks into your life, old friends can come back in.

So, how's everyone? don't answer that, nobody can answer this... unless they comment, or it's a chatroom.... i wonder if this is secretly a chatroom? 0_o - i would certainly hope not. Lol

anyways, nothing like writing my thoughts on a permanent piece of online paper where the whole world can see it and judge me for every fligging little piece of word they have to offer. It's weird... Every word i put down is like a bowl of fruits and veggies We just sit here chomping away at our screen and we write away on our keyboard... Lots of you might disagree with me on this, but i find this actually relaxing to get my words out... Seriously, it helps me be calm.....

"lhgnio g'j 'gn'hbnf'n'aspgnal vm'sghe[gmsd v]gnae!!!!"

Sorry for the mumbo-jumbo gibberish there. Lol...

I actually changed the station on my library. Now, it's a 70's song.... sometimes, it's actually good to listen to different types of music. Please cope with me while i keep writing as best as i can!!


Hopefully, i'll share more words tomorrow.... I'll find a way. :)

For What It's Worth....

Hello my beautiful blog!!!!

I honestly have to apologize for not keeping updated with things lately. I've been living under a rock, and have honestly been seeking Our Lord and Savior for guidance. So, since i've been gone for a couple months, let's get into some story telling. :)

So, first thing's first, I'm honestly sorry for not posting anything for the past few months. Things got REALLY important between my family, work, and friends.... including myself. For anyone who reads this, let me just say that i'm glad that people follow and read this, because i don't know what would've happened if i didn't have any followers... to be honest, if i didn't, i'd probably shut this blog down. and i know that i wouldn't want that.

So, my brother recently lost his job at Nordstrom's due to a stupid coworker of his. If i was in that position where i honestly hated a coworker due to their meanness and disfunction  towards me, i'd probably get used to it... I honestly LOVE my job, and i couldn't ask for any better job!

Secondly, i was at the movies during Christmas weekend. I had ordered early screening tickets to the 70mm roadshow cut of "The Hateful Eight" and i have to say, it was great! When the movie ended, there was a LONG line to go to the bathroom. I was among the line of gentlemen there(because i figured these men got out of the same showing). And due to the kindness out of my heart, i let a guy(who seemed to be in his late 20's or early 30's) go ahead of me. Well, approximately 2-3 minutes later, we had to call the ambulance because the guy blacked out and fell on the floor. When he fell, instead of freaking out like i would've(due to remembering a certain loss in my life that i won't ever forget), I was completely calm and helped out with the other folks and left a couple minutes later..

A few minutes later, we had stopped at the nearest target so i could pick up a phone charger and a couple other things. Among grabbing those things, one of those things was those 1 liter of coke. One of the bottles fell off the shelving, hit another shelf, ricocheted off my shoulder and spilled all over the floor... So that was pretty much that eventful weekend.

A couple weeks later, during the blu ray release of "The Martian", i had to make a trip to the store to pick up a few things, because its groceries. you can't argue with groceries! anyway, when i went, it was dark out. The first time i got there, i was ready to pay, until i realized i had forgotten my wallet.

First off, you ALWAYS make sure you have your wallet whenever you go places! Even if it's for a little bit, you never leave without your wallet.

Secondly, if you're walking outside when it's dark out, you ALWAYS have to be aware of your surroundings. That's why i check my surroundings whenever i cross the street. And just for extra measure, i check them 2 times, because you can never be so sure. 

Anyways, back to my story.....So, as soon as i had traveled back to grab my wallet, i had experienced my life flash before my eyes. what do i mean by that? Well, back to my second reason of going out, i literally had the right to cross the street. However, out of nowhere, some inconsiderate jerk thinks he has the right away to drive while "i'm" crossing the street. I could've been badly injured in that collision. And what's worse is that this guy, who had a white colored vehicle, didn't even stop to check if i was ok. Luckily, the guy behind him did and asked if i was ok. I'm glad he did.

So, after going to the store, i watched The Martian which was REALLY good.

A week later, i end up working that week. And back to the fact, i LOVE my job! But it's a shame that i had to only work 2 hours. It's what happens when pay roll gets really tight. My knee was acting up that week as well. It was acting up because my dryer needed a new part, and desperately needed to be fixed. While it was being fixed, i climbed on top of the washer, which was a bad idea in my opinion. 

Anyways, working 2 hours was an honestly easy shift, but hard to cope with because of my knee. As soon as i got off of work, the SAME EXACT THING happened again. The driver wasn't looking where she was going, and it kind of ticked me off that she didn't even say sorry. But, with the kindness of my heart, i apologized because i thought it would've been nice to apologize for something that you CLEARLY NEVER DID. 

the reason why i'm underlining these things is because i'm stating important facts. I'm not stressing out my anger out on anyone or anything. I just feel like people should know these things sometimes. And basically, you followers are my only resort.

So, the last friday, i had talked with a good friend of mine, who also happens to be a pastor. he gave me GREAT advice. He told me to stop venting all my anger on "The Book of Faces"(my term for "Facebook") and seek some help from Our Lord and Savior, and maybe talk with someone about these things once in a while.

So, with that all being said, i'd like to take this time to say thank you for whoever reads my blog and likes these posts. i know it's been a while since i've been on here, but i feel like i needed the time off for a bit. I'd also like to thank my family for bringing me into this world because i wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my momsy and old man(my term for my parents, don't judge please). I'd also like to thank my friends who read this, if they even do... And if a few people from my youth group are reading this, shoutout to HCF(Horizon Christian Fellowship[my old youth group]) and Calvary Aurora(my current one} for being so humble for inviting me into their space with open arms. And finally, and most importantly, i'd like to thank Our Lord and Savior for bringing me into the world, blessing me with a great family, blessing me with the nicest youth group in the world, and giving me the best job in the world.

Peace followers - J.

Staying Single Until Further Notice...

Dear ongoing readers,

if you're just now joining this blog, any new eyes are always welcome! :)

So, within this past week, i've been trying to cope with life's achievements and goals that i'll never be able to do in life because i can't afford anything.

Maybe it's a wrong time to do this... later.

This Broadcast Is Brought To You By The Letter 4.

So, it's been a few months since my last post.

My deepest apologies fans and readers of my blog. It's like i have nothing to write about anymore. And i guess that's not okay for a guy who's absolutely depressed at the moment and sees this as his only gateway to salvation and happiness.

What have i been up to? well, for the past few weeks, i've been working, going to church, and going to movies trying to better myself. I've been meeting new friends at my church for a bit now. I've got to say, I'm amused that someone that i haven't seen in 4 years flat still remembers me... How cool would that be? You run into a friend who you barely noticed for 4 years, but they know you in some bizarre way... How odd. Get a clue fools.

Anyways, i've also been thinking about why i hate this time of the year very much.... It's not the fact that spending time with family and friends(whenever i can) is the best feeling in the world. It's the fact that nearly 5 years ago, everything i ever loved was taken from me, and there's no possible way to ever get those moments back ever again.

So, every year during the holiday season, i cry myself to sleep every night because even though it's bad to look back on distant bad memories of my life, they are certain milestones of my life that I will never let go. And if you're thinking about commenting "Let It Go!" from Frozen, please execute yourself from this post please because even though you'd say that i've been through worse, you've got no absolute idea what i've been through in my life.

I guess listening to 80's Pop Radio isn't helping me get my emotions out quite well. But this year's been pretty hectic because of numerous things. Like for instance:

•       I finally bought my tickets to Star Wars: The Force Awakens but have nobody to see it with.
•       I'll be getting more hours and more days at work. 
•       I've been REALLY trying to find someone to take out on a date.... that is, if i ever do.
•       and the rest of my siblings might be moving out soon.... Which means i'll be the only one at my old man's house.

I just feel like i need to be alone in life for some reason. Even though Our Lord and Savior is watching over me, i feel like i need to never be in a relationship with anyone. I say this because i've always listened to "There's someone for everyone." and i've listened to that for 18+ years, i'm planning on losing all hope and i just need to find my center with God at the moment. If he helps me meet the girl of my dreams, i may have to reject it because the only fact that i can't let go of is that "I'll never be good enough." Sure, people may disagree with my theory on this one, but for a guy who works 2 - 3 days a week, who's an absolute dork inside and out, and works at a retail store with a bunch of females, it gets kind of lonely being one of the only guys who works at my store.

I'm just restless of the advice that others keep giving me. And honestly, this is better than sitting on a couch and eating a bucket of ice cream to eat your feelings away.

I guess this is all i have to write about at the moment.

I'll keep in touch guys and gals.

Today's Forecast Is..... Not Too Bright.

Good evening and welcome to another addition of my useless blog.

I do apologize that i haven't been on here that much lately. I've been having a few issues on my hands.

So, here's my situations i've been dealing with....

First off, living the single life ain't all that it used to be. People would be usually going out and have a good old time or asking people out on dates. Instead, i'm the one who's a home on the couch, writing my blog and watching Netflix. It's not fun.... not at all.

I've been cringed in my house, stuffed in this shallow shell i call a home.

Date: September 6th, 2015
So, for the past few years, ive been using social networking apps to communicate with society besides work. And i've been trying to cope with myself in the meantime.

I'll update this blog a.s.a.p.

Wednesday Means Bible Study.

Dear readers,

this post is brought to you by bible study... make sure you go.
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I sit upon this empty chair writing another post in today's blog of the unknown....

Who knows what i'll be willing to cork up today. So, to start today off, let me just say that during last night, my keyboard was acting up again. I need to look at it give it a good scrubbing. It's rot me to my core somehow.....

I'll fix my keyboard and post a blog later.
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Let's see how far i can get this time....

So, as I'm typing this blog to keep a hold of my sanity. I don't have any fear in my life at the moment on this sunny hot day... I might have to take a shower in a bit to help me cool off.

So, why I do this is to get out some of my problems I'm dealing with in my life. I don't wanna listen to the haters in life who say "I can't do anything right." because it'll always try bring me down. People will always try to bring you down anyway you can. It's up to us to try to deny those theories that people will say and dwell into our heads.

I'm not talking about breaking the laws, or getting in trouble with the law enforcement or anything. All I'm saying is to be who you want to be and don't let anyone stand in your way. I've had multiple people do this to me, so I'm trying to become a better person so that way i can be happy with myself once again.

It'll be a HUGE step in my life for me to take.... That's one of the reasons why I started to blog more. I have more reasons, but it'll be covered hopefully eventually someday. As I sit here open hearted, I want people to know that I'm always here to listen to whatever problems you may have in life. I'm sure I can help out anyway I can... And if I cant, I'll always look to Our Lord for guidance and any assistance that i need help with.

I apologize if my sentences or paragraphs are not as long as they should be... I'm not THAT much of a writer... I sometimes write as long as i can, sometimes i can write short.... I'm like seasons. Once they start, who knows when they're gonna stop.

It's..... I'm sorry, I'm getting distracted. Silly radio of mine being loud and what not.

Anyways, it's honestly a gift to be writing on this blog again. I wondered when i was gonna start writing again. But, i've had a lot of issues to deal with at the moment. Well, i'm back, and i should be doing these daily... Well, maybe a couple I'll skip a day or something... I don't know. You decide?

.... Ugh.... FUDGE CRACKERS!1111 I've gotta use the restroom.

I'm sure i can try to hold it in for a little longer... Well, maybe in a little bit, I can come to a stopping point and go to the bathroom and take a shower.....

There ain't much to talk about now anyways.....

Sorry folks, I'll have to come back to this later tonight.... I'll be back after Bible Study. :)

Tuesday.... Another Quiet Day......

I'll have to come back because my keyboard is acting up again.

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So, another day of moving everything.

My carpet just got installed. Yay for me..... Now all i have to do is put the boards back on, dust off my furniture and move EVERYTHING back.

There's not much to talk about today....

I'll just blog tomorrow morning.

Night everybody.