Wednesday Means Bible Study.

Dear readers,

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I sit upon this empty chair writing another post in today's blog of the unknown....

Who knows what i'll be willing to cork up today. So, to start today off, let me just say that during last night, my keyboard was acting up again. I need to look at it give it a good scrubbing. It's rot me to my core somehow.....

I'll fix my keyboard and post a blog later.
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Let's see how far i can get this time....

So, as I'm typing this blog to keep a hold of my sanity. I don't have any fear in my life at the moment on this sunny hot day... I might have to take a shower in a bit to help me cool off.

So, why I do this is to get out some of my problems I'm dealing with in my life. I don't wanna listen to the haters in life who say "I can't do anything right." because it'll always try bring me down. People will always try to bring you down anyway you can. It's up to us to try to deny those theories that people will say and dwell into our heads.

I'm not talking about breaking the laws, or getting in trouble with the law enforcement or anything. All I'm saying is to be who you want to be and don't let anyone stand in your way. I've had multiple people do this to me, so I'm trying to become a better person so that way i can be happy with myself once again.

It'll be a HUGE step in my life for me to take.... That's one of the reasons why I started to blog more. I have more reasons, but it'll be covered hopefully eventually someday. As I sit here open hearted, I want people to know that I'm always here to listen to whatever problems you may have in life. I'm sure I can help out anyway I can... And if I cant, I'll always look to Our Lord for guidance and any assistance that i need help with.

I apologize if my sentences or paragraphs are not as long as they should be... I'm not THAT much of a writer... I sometimes write as long as i can, sometimes i can write short.... I'm like seasons. Once they start, who knows when they're gonna stop.

It's..... I'm sorry, I'm getting distracted. Silly radio of mine being loud and what not.

Anyways, it's honestly a gift to be writing on this blog again. I wondered when i was gonna start writing again. But, i've had a lot of issues to deal with at the moment. Well, i'm back, and i should be doing these daily... Well, maybe a couple I'll skip a day or something... I don't know. You decide?

.... Ugh.... FUDGE CRACKERS!1111 I've gotta use the restroom.

I'm sure i can try to hold it in for a little longer... Well, maybe in a little bit, I can come to a stopping point and go to the bathroom and take a shower.....

There ain't much to talk about now anyways.....

Sorry folks, I'll have to come back to this later tonight.... I'll be back after Bible Study. :)

Tuesday.... Another Quiet Day......

I'll have to come back because my keyboard is acting up again.

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So, another day of moving everything.

My carpet just got installed. Yay for me..... Now all i have to do is put the boards back on, dust off my furniture and move EVERYTHING back.

There's not much to talk about today....

I'll just blog tomorrow morning.

Night everybody.

Monday Morning..... The Start Of A New Week

Okay, to start off the new week, I've decided to write this morning, even though there may not be much to write about, I'm trying to do this to deal with my impatience... And apparently, I hope this works....... Here i go.

As i listen to my spotify, I'm writing about who knows what because sometimes random writing is always the best, right? If not, just go away and do not disturb the peace.

So, to start off the morning, a little about myself.......

We all know i'm from Colorado(duh), but what else is there to know? Well, i'm 22 years of age, I have hazel eyes, I work retail, as a album cover designer, and as a graphic designer..... whenever i have spare time, i usually am on my xbox, I'm cleaning, or i'm writing on this blog(which is mainly important for a fresh start in life). I'm a huge Disney fanatic, theater nerd, talented singer and actor(I like to refer to myself as "The Man of Many Voices"). So, if there's anything else that's important that you'd like to know(like how I got into writing, or when i started writing), go on ahead, spread the love and write me a comment. This blog may not be inspirational, but i am gonna try my best and see where it takes me. And besides, looking for God to help me out with this is help pick up most of the pieces i've lost in my life(which will be covered someday).

So, let me talk about one of my major issues that led to my downfall approximately 5 years ago. So, kicking off the new year of 2010-2011, a great friend of mine who i'll always hold near and dear to my heart died of cancer. I honestly don't remember what type of cancer it was, the only vaguely thing i remember was that she was taken from me. i couldn't have gone to her funeral because i'm usually not a "mourning" person(me trying to be funny here.... not working). a few weeks after her death, and a random student comes up to me and nominates the book that changed my life forever. I've always wanted to buy this book because i've always wanted to keep a piece of my best friend besides my memories of her. She probably was the only one who understood what i was going through at the time. Whenever my day was going bad, she'd always be my ray of sunshine. Whenever I'd be lonely, she'd always be my pillow of comfort. And now, I shall always view her as a best friend, even though she's in the great beyond. I trust she's doing fine in with Jesus and God... And i hope that when the day finally comes, we can hopefully be reunited. Until then, i'll be writing more on this blog whenever i can because i'm trying to pick up the pieces of my life one by one.... and besides, when i said i'm doing this to control my patience, i'm doing it to better myself.... mostly for me, the other percentage is for a girl. Yep, i said it right, I'm also doing it a little for her because I have faith that she believes i can control my patience through blogging about life. So, i'm gonna try my best and write as much as i can.....

Geez, I'm coming to the sixth line of sentences already. See how much i can accomplish if i can just pick out each little word out of my head and listen to music on another window? it's kind of amazing how fast i can type without trying to make a single mistake. i know that there are some spelling errors, but apparently, i couldn't care at the moment because I'm a little far into writing this right now...... Anyways, with God's help, I know i can at least try to move past the stuff... And maybe one day, I'll finally be happy with myself once again. Yes, I've never been proud of myself those years that everything happened to me... And unfortunately, I'm never going to get those years back of my life.

Now, it's coming to the seventh line of sentences....... Wow, such an accomplishment(sarcasm). I also forgot to mention a few more things about myself....

Even though I'm a huge Disney fanatic, I'll basically watch anything on TV or Netflix. I'll even listen to just about anything on the radio or Cassette Disc(CD). I also have a effective music library on my laptop as well. If we're going to be friends, let me just tell you my top 3 favorite colors:

     - Orange
     - Pink
     - Purple

If those aren't on that list, sorry pal, but we're not friends.

Here's another topic, it's Week 4 in the whole remodeling my bedroom process. My bedroom is being repainted, re-carpeted, and remodeled.... We finished the paint portion and we've got the carpet... All we have to do is install the carpet and move everything back. My bedroom's looking so beautiful right now!!!! I'm glad i got it in that color(purple). The carpet looks beautiful as well. We usually have a blondish regular kind of carpet, where as in my bedroom has this rough dark grayish carpet. I can't wait to have everything finished and remodeled.

Yesterday, my brother and an old friend went shopping and bought a boat load of laundry detergent.... Seriously, they bought about 17 cases of Tide, 4 bottles of Clorox, 1 box of Gain, 1 box of Mr Clean, a bottle of who knows what, 3 air fresheners, and a spray bottle of Febreeze. Don't believe me?

Yeah, THAT MUCH LAUNDRY DETERGENT.

I love having a roommate around the house that spends around $100+ on that many groceries....

Now THAT'S REALLY smart shopping.
<- this photo was taken yesterday. no harm 
came to the laundry detergent whatsoever.








Anyways, a friend of mine from work has moved to Colorado Springs for a while. Her rat has died of who knows what a while ago.... I sent my condolences and everything. I hope she's alright moving and everything. Another co worker of mine is leaving for Wyoming for a while which makes me even more upset because she's the BEST co worker I've ever worked with.

I might as well sign off for now. I'll be back later tonight with an update on how my day went and everything.

Have a great day everybody. :)

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 Good evening everyone.

So, as I've stated, I'm back with another couple paragraphs of what exactly went on today.

First thing's first, I had a new pizza place for dinner..... It was quite edible.  I've had a few pizza places during my adventures in life, but this one was good.

Time Is Wasting, Yet Can Be A Virtue At Times

So, another post in the great unknown as i completely draft out word for word in this online blog that can spy on everything I may write on this post... Well, I might as make it worth while.

Since I don't have much to write about at the moment, there shall be an update later on today, I promise. I need to start writing more anyways. The weather is looking beautiful outside today... I could be going out for a walk, i could be tanning and getting a huge sunburn on an unknown part of my body... Instead, I am cramped up on my laptop writing on m blog... See the time I apparently have? I though so....

Anyways, how is everyone this morning? I hope everyone who reads this is doing at least okay.... If not, I know how it is because I've been through darkness before... But that's beyond the point. When I try to do things in my life, whether it be work or cleaning, I try to be the best me I can be at it. Even though my time consists of being a dorky nerd, it makes the time i do stuff worth while.

So, here's a little bit of information that people should know about this.... If there coming to an update on this blog, there's going to be a line under the first couple of sentences or paragraphs that have been written. As such:

"_________________" is what the update line will look like. Just to let people know. Hehe.

Anyways, today's Friday and as of now, I thank Our Lord that I'm alive and what I have in life for the time being. Whether being family, friends, new friends, old friends, and other minor things in life, I know for a fact that I'm completely honored and blessed to have such a Great Lord to give me these things in life.

I'll check back with everyone later. :)

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Thanks to my computer crashing on me, I'm not going to rewrite everything because my computer decided to be a stupid idiot and NOT SAVE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you Firefox, and THANK YOU BLOGGER.

Goodnight everyone.

New Life Equals A New Chapter

So, where do i begin?

I live in Colorado where the weather is sunny at times and rainy other days.... i don't honestly know the percentage of days it happens.

So, i apologize that i haven't been here in a while. It's such a shame that i don't get any page views any more. While i sit here and write about who knows what, I'm listening to my radio trying to think of something to write.

So, here's an update on what i've been doing(probably guessing that nobody cares). I've been working in my 2 places, i've been cleaning, i've been trying to find fish in the sea for myself(given circumstances that i can't because i'm not lucky), and I've been..... wait for it..... GOING TO CHURCH!!!!!!!

That's right, for the first time in 2 years(approximately), I've finally found a church that may accept me for who i finally am. I'm also going to try to make these longer for the fact that I have to use an attachment keyboard at the moment...... Never mind.... I'll just use my keyboard to my advantage. Anyways, so I'm also going to try to make this as long as possible without trying to mess everything up on my keyboard.

So, to new people who are reading, I'm going to try to find out who i want to be in life and what i want to be. And i know through His will, I'd be able to find the answers I'm hopefully looking for.

So, can people please support me? Thanks everyone who does.

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Since my last post was in June, i thought I'd make up for old time sake. My life has gone completely uphill since I've decided to stay positive and be good for the better... Let me just explain that 2010-2012 was a REALLY dark time for me and I'm glad to be out of that dark corner for the very first time in the 3 years of my humanity. Now, I've got 2 amazing jobs in a retail store and an art gallery(which I'm very glad to call it my home away from home), I've been trying to go out more, I've been looking for myself through His Will(even though i still have a way to go). Other than all that stuff, I've been at least trying to be social(even though i'm a huge nerd and can be a reckless idiot sometimes), and I've been trying to find someone who I can try to date... but as luck would have it, it's not in my agenda right now because people have yet to believe that even though I may look annoying and can nerd out to anything, this christian has a heart of gold and is probably one of the most amazing people you'd ever meet in your life, and i am serious about it.

I also forgot to mention that I am feeling under the weather right now because of these couple of reasons:
A. I have a runny nose
and B. I have to suffer from a nose injury for a few days.

So, that's what I'm dealing with apparently.

I honestly try to be the best person i can be. And whenever I can't be, I'm usually disappointed that I can never appeal and fit into society..... I know that was a bit harsh, but I've just dealt with a lot the last time i was gone from this blog.... Well, that's going to be different now, because I'm doing things for the better that will hopefully change my life for the better... I'll be able to write more, I'll be able to go out more..... And who knows, with this much luck I have, I'll hopefully soon be able to finally find someone who I'm able to date on a regular basis.....

So, I'd like to take this time to pray for what I do have and for what I don't. I pray that my dear friends in Littleton are safe and are doing amazing with what they're doing. I pray that I may one day see them again because I honestly don't know what I would do if i had never met them in the first place(even though I don't know very much about them, I'd like to refer to them as "My second family" because we've spent valuable time together, and I really enjoyed being there[even if they didn't enjoy me at their church group]). I pray that I find what answers I may find for myself out in the great unknown. I pray that i find true love one day(hopefully soon, because a guy like me who's been technically alone for his whole life.... He needs "A Whole New World" in his life). I pray that things will get better for my family because my mommy's side of the family is the one I worry about the most. I pray that I shall finally fit into society... I don't wanna be a normal person, I just wanna belong somewhere.

Oh Lord, I'm here, and I'm listening.... God Bless Us Everyone.

"When it goeth well with the righteous, the city rejoiceth: and when the wicked perish, there is shouting" - Proverbs 11 (KJV)