Hopelessness.

So, i know i said i'd keep updating, but i've been really busy lately. anyways, i've been under the weather lately. The reason why is because i have a very low self confidence in myself when it comes to being alone with nobody to talk to.

Unfortunately, i'm a victim of the social networking world and i needed a break from everything, so i thought i'd come here and write another selfish blog that nobody cares about reading anymore. i can't keep forgetting about this blog like this. i promised myself that i'd write this blog thing. so, why not start now right? shut your trap mind.

Oh, and also, i will be writing a blog on February 14th, 2014, otherwise known on valentines day(or single awareness day as we singles like to call it). With that being said, i was about to become single for the 21st year in a row for single awareness day.. until the love of my life stepped in and agreed to be mine this year. Today marks the official day i haven't been alone on valentines day. My teacher also told me and a few other class mates that she's going to make us valentines this year... i don't know if i should respond by throwing it away or accepting it at all. i don't know what i'm going to do with my life as soon as graphic design ends..... all i hope and pray is that i won't be living in the street asking for spare change at all.

Even i can't debate on terms like these. apparently, i'm listening to sappy love songs that i hope will calm my pain down, but how's that supposed to happen when all i can think of are the endless nights i spend alone in bed crying every night wishing for a new tomorrow which i know will never come.

i'm gonna keep this short for now because i don't have a lot of time. so, where do i end from here?? ah, like i always do.

Goodbye readers,
joshua